心情的釋放----------The release of mood

                               

                                   心情的釋放

        經過了生氣，沈澱，禱告，反省，流淚，祈求。我知道我為什麼要生氣了，

原本都自我勉勵，告訴自己不要這麼容易生氣，想不到自己還是這麼容易生氣，

在禱告中也向　神悔改，祈求，求神幫助。當我明白時，我哭了。並且告訴主，我會痛，所以我會叫。要做到主耶穌您的樣式真的很難。那一天我知道我為什麼會生氣了，原來是我內心自卑心的緣故，從小被人欺負，看不起，現在長大，神給我了滿滿恩典，當別人想要再看不起我的時候，甚至欺負我兒子的時候，這時壓抑已久的自卑心爆發了。我不願再被看不起，我要反擊。於是憤怒，生氣，一股腦的都發作了。事後在禱告中，也都將這一切交給主。就在昨天我太太與我分享了張瓊玉姊妹的見證，我感動的哭了。如果要說被欺負，她從小被欺負的次數更多，她流的淚更多，她受的委屈更多，她所受的肉體折磨更大，可是因為她所受的這些苦難，折磨，卻成為日後幫助許多人的動力，她將別人的內心的苦處說出來了。主耶穌在各各他背著十字架時，他受盡了羞辱，他都忍下來，而成就了救恩。

        曾經聽過一個老鷹寓言是這樣說的：老鷹活到四十歲時爪開始老化，喙又長又彎幾可及胸，羽毛過於濃密、厚重幾致難以飛行；此時，老鷹面臨痛苦重生及等死的選擇。老鷹得勉強飛到懸崖上築巢，靠著擊打岩石拍掉長喙，以新長出的喙拔掉老爪甲，再以新生爪甲拔掉老舊飛羽。經歷這段「剝奪」、「苦難」、「飢餓」、「口渴」、「無力」的困苦，五個月的焠練，老鷹煥然新生，便可再遨翔天際三十年。

        當看到主耶穌，張姊妹及老鷹的寓言他們的經歷，再想想自己，自己的苦楚便算不得什麼了。

The release of mood

After an angry, precipitation, prayer, reflection, tears, pray. I know why I was angry,

Originally both self-encouragement, telling myself not so easy to get angry, think he is still so easy to get angry,

Also in prayer to God to repent, pray, ask God to help. When I know, I cried. And told the Lord, I will be pain, so I'll call. To do the Lord Jesus your style really hard. That day I knew why I was angry, it was my heart's sake inner inferiority childhood being bullied, look down, now grown up, full of grace God has given me, and then when someone wants to look down on me, even bully me when his son, when pent-inferiority heart broke. I do not want to be looked down again, I want to fight back. So angry, angry, both will fall into attack. Later in prayer, but also have all this to the Lord. Just yesterday my wife shared a testimony 张琼玉 sisters with me, I was moved to tears. If we talk about being bullied, the number of her childhood being bullied more, her tears flow more, she wronged by the more physical torture she suffered more, but because she suffered such misery, torment, but helped many people to become the driving force in future, she will say someone else's heart out grievances. Jesus carrying the cross at Golgotha ​​when he suffered the humiliation he have put down, and the achievements of salvation.

Once heard an eagle fable had this to say: eagle claw live to the age of forty begin to age, long and curved beak and chest are almost feather too thick, heavy caused several difficult flight; At this point, the Eagles face the painful rebirth and die choice. Eagles nest on the cliff was barely fly, hit the rock brushed against a long beak, pulled out with a new beak to grow old Zhao Jia, Zhao Jia then unplug the old newborn feathers. Experienced this "deprivation", "suffering", "hunger", "thirsty", "weakness" of hardship, five months to shape, the Eagles Huanran, you can re-Flying High three years.

When he saw Jesus, Zhang sisters and their experiences Eagles fable, and then think about themselves, their suffering is nothing of it.